Happy Valentines! 10 Years Since
It’s Valentine’s Day!
After much thought and anticipation, I would like to post a video I made back in 2009. The video might look amateur but its my best effort back then.
10 Years Ago
Imagine yourself 10 years ago. Could you think back on your understanding of love? Ten years ago, I didn’t know a lot about love, but I thought I did. At this time I believed:
- Being right was more important than loving other people.
- I did not know how to receive love.
- Romance was transactional and more about getting.
- I have polarized black and white/ good or bad thinking
- Caring (in hindsight) looked like for others to see.
But because I was an ok, working in one of the richest cities in the world in an architect job, not only did these not matter. I wasn’t aware I had them.
Why this song?
One and Only was a music I saved in my ipod. This and a newly left group of Flatmates set the Ladlady in Deira to repaint the room white. Inspiration came and voila, an MTV with skinny me. Please note, some pictures were switched to hide the person’s identity. 😃😃😃
“One And Only” by Parokya ni Edgar Performed for ❤️❤️❤️
|It took one look
Then forever laid out in front of me
One smile then I died
Only to be revived by youThere I was
Thought I had everything figured out
Goes to show just how much I know
’bout the way life plays out . . .[Chorus:]
I take one step away
then I find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only you…ooh…
|Now I know
That I know not a thing at allExcept the fact that I am yours
And that you are mineOoh,
They told me that this wouldn’t be easy
I’m not one to complain…Repeat Chorus
The disclaimers would soon haunt me because it wouldn’t work out:
If this doesn’t work out, it will be a great loss, but you have already taught me a lot! Thank you.
You are such a gift.
The big lesson is to trust God, no matter how bad everything looks like. Because he got this handled. And lets trust God in this miraculous adventure late in my life. The adventure with You. ❤
Now Why am I Posting this?
To humiliate myself of how skinny I was.
To encourage others in love-loss that it isn’t so bad.
To celebrate the things I tried no matter what the results
To laugh about things that I thought were huge for me
Lessons I Learned
As I look back, I can’t help but be thankful to her that she drew me out of my shell. I saw how a mess my emotions was. I learned that I am worthy of everything I disqualified myself for.
Lately, I am abstaining from relationships as a choice. I learn that neediness is not resolved in better “girl-catching” skills but resolved in identity. Indeed “taking a step away” relinquishes my control. It’s now a year of trusting God since last Valentine and it has brought me by thus far. I am hoping that this too has encouraged you to trust more.
He who has experienced your goodness will confidently trust in You, for they will never be forsaken. Psalms 9:10